It’s weird. It’s teeming with contradiction. It’s a paradoxical wonderland. Opening up to the cosmos is the practice of having meaningful experiences with the parts of something unknowable.
It’s as simple as letting go, and yet, letting go proved to be the most difficult part of my liberation process so far. I let go of behavioral patterns, expectations, and any fantasies fooling me into believing that I needed to make my life “just right,” that it was possible to achieve some kind of perfection.
Opening up to the cosmos was a soulful decision. Choosing to abide by my deeper self, my subconscious desire, was the more difficult path for me to take in life. Death, in many ways, felt like an easier route to self-liberation.
I chose to let go of my faux life for the real deal, rather than waiting to die.
WHY IS THIS THE THIRD CIRCLE OF SELF-LIBERATION?
My opening up process automatically began when I took practicing solitude seriously. Seriously enough that all of the out-of-the-norm experiences I was having, I understood as real and engaging—that life was much more mysterious than I originally gave it credit for.
I felt powerful 🎧 while exploring the mysteries of life, once I began to eagerly let those mysteries in. They beckoned my individuality to express, to burn more brightly in the world. I was able to see reality as a story, that the emotional and spiritual qualities of life followed distinct narratives. These narratives revealed deeper layers of connection between all things. With awareness of those connections, I’ve been able to tie-up loose ends and connect more dots within my contemplations of reality and self.
The most profound gift that the cosmos has offered me has been the melting away of my tunnel-vision. My daily experiences fit into a well-carved tunnel, and so my life could only expand to the perimeter of that tunnel. My physical vision followed suit. I was seeing a fraction of the world around me. And connecting with very little of it.
It gave me a sense of safety and control. But, as soon as my vision expanded past the tunnel, I was thrown off-kilter.
When I gained my bearings, life became more meaningful and mysterious. Connecting with certain people and aspects of the natural world became more profound in their capacity to bring me joy. Highs felt brighter, lows felt deeper.
The third circle is the “get out of bed” level of one’s awakening and commitment to self-liberation. Many of us have opened our eyes by reaching critical mass, some of us have readied ourselves to get-up out of bed by practicing solitude, and then there are those with the willpower to let go and open up, pulling our legs off of the bed while rubbing the remainder of sleep out of our eyes.
The next circle, the fourth circle of my self-liberation, brought me to engaging with new people. The cosmos revealed to me frequency. I learned that frequency is at the heart of connection. Letting go and opening up had changed my frequency, attracting new kinds of people and circumstances that offered a whole new host of challenges and reflections.
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Awesome Cody, it is such an amazing experience.